April 7, 2011

Ok either something is wrong with me or I'm not getting enough sleep! I have been really tired these past 2 days.... I have been sleeping but I keep waking up early in the morning for no reason. I do sometimes wake up when I'm hot but I haven't really been hot!! So this has been causing me to sleep during the day when I don't want to.... I drunk coffee yesterday because I thought it might work and I never got anything out of it at all yesterday. Today I was only supposed to take a nap since I woke up at 3 in the morning but when I went to sleep I woke up at 11!! I don't really know what's going on here but hopefully it's nothing. I'm too excited for this weekend!!! I love weekends even though I'm not even in school I love weekends because I feel like I got more time then. lol This week isn't even over yet and I feel like soooo much has happened. I talked to my dad yesterday and I found out that my aunt that lives here had went down to Tennessee to visit with them!! I was like "where was I at when this was being discussed?!?!" She told me that she needed a vacation and I was thinking "well I surely need one too!!" lol Hopefully I will get to go down there sometime soon so I can see what it's like there. I haven't been down south in awhile. I was hoping I could do it this summer since I'm not going to camp this year but I don't know how my mom is going to take it and I don't know if everything will really work out. I'm just really excited and ready for the summer! I got stuff I need to be planning because my summer is wide open for options!! lol The kids are back and so far they haven't bugged me too much but I'm ready for them to go back to school.....(except my lil girl Nina she's the nicer one of the three lol) Well need to go do some stuff so I don't look so bored lol and remember to keep my bestie in your prayers!! :)

April 5, 2011

I love my life and the people that are in it!! I talked to my bestie and I know I haven't said anything about her because I get too emotional about her.... She has M.S and it has been getting worse for her. For the past three years she has been struggling bad with it and after all the hard work she wants to give up now. She told me that she's tired all the time and just don't feel like fighting it anymore. So when we were texting yesterday I was sooo sad because I don't want to lose her. I don't know what I would do with out her because she is apart of me and Caitlin's triangle.... So losing her would be a tragic and I've been praying for a miracle because when she said that she was dying I didn't know what to say. I told her to never give up and that she will always be in my prayers. So if you're seeing this please pray for her to because we can't lose a girl like her!!! Other then a little sad moment in the day me and James are going to go see Harry Potter this weekend!! I can't wait!!! :) I don't know about you but I'm ready for warm weather and it is supposed to get warm this weekend too!! WOOOHOOOO!!!! lol P.S the kids come back tomorrow!! OH MAN!!

April 4th, 2011

Blah Blah Blah....lol watched movies and chilled. Wrestling was awesome last night but I fell asleep towards the end and I really wanted to watch "Tough Enough" because Stone Cold Steve Austin is the host/trainer. (along with my other favorite wrestlers) I have come to a conclusion that Steve Austin is my legend idol!! I like my main wrestlers like John Cena, Triple H, Ric Flair, and Kofi Kingston but Stone Cold Steve Austin is my ultimate idol! :) And now Shawn Micheals is newest "Hall Of Famer!!" That was awesome to see. My little sistter called me too....I know they miss me otherwise they wouldn't have called me. lol But I have to say I kinda miss them too but not as much because I love having the house to myself!! Going to plan a movie date with James and it is going to be awesome! I definitely can't wait! Wow I've been in a good mood all day and I'm lovin it! :) Oh and this week it's all about college....so I pray that all goes well with IPFW.

"Kissed Your Kiss Away...."

So I know we have those times where we get bored and start to write poems, or doodle, or just curl up and read a book. Well I do all of those things. lol But for now here is a poem (that can turn into a song) that I know....
                                         "Kissed Your Kiss Away...."


Thought I Kissed You Kiss Away....
Thought I Loved Your Love Today....
See The Things You See My Way....
I Thought I Kissed Your Kiss Away....


Said Some Things I Shouldn't Say,
Needed Your Need To Stay....
See The Things You See My Way...
Did I Kiss Your Kiss Away?
I Can't Help But Think When You're
Away From Me, You Are My
Meant-To-Be....


I Thought I Kiss Your Kiss Away....
Thought I Loved Your Love Today....
Can Only Wish, Hope, And Pray
To Never Kiss Your Kiss Away....




That is my poem/song and I hope you liked it!! :)

April 3, 2011

This day wasn't too bad. I slept in again. I kept waking up and going back to sleep. I was watching a movie at 5 in the morning and it was a movie I liked too. It had my favorite "Jackass" star...Johnny Knoxville!! lol So after that I ended up going back to sleep. When I woke up again it was almost 10 o'clock! I wasn't expecting to sleep that long. I didn't know what to really do today since the kids were leaving today to stay over at my grannies house. I am soooo excited for that!! lol But I got asked the most ramdomest question by my mom....we were talking about the pills that I'm taking and she asked me if I needed to get birth control pills!!! I was like "WTF?!?!?" I thought that was weird of my mom to ask me that, because me and James haven't even talked about any of that. Let alone to even try to actually do it!! I mean do she even trust me not to do that?? I mean I know better!! So since then I have been thinking "is this some kind of sign??" I know nothing will come of this but it's got me thinking...but anywhooo the rest of the day was just relaxing and watching movies on tv. Now that the kids are gone I get to get spoiled by my parents for a few days!! hehehe! But it feels weird without them messing with me and it was funny that my stepdad said "bedtime!!" when its just me and them here. And since I'll be home alone this week I think a party is in store...but we'll have to see. Oh and to put fun to this blog my friend Jonathan Anderson is a dork!! hahaha! And the night goes on with some zzzzz's.....night all!!

April 2, 2011

Well today wasn't as bad as I thought it would be....I did sleep in since I was up late last night. lol I didn't think I was going to go out today but I just couldn't stay in the house with the way I was feeling. I thought I could get over feeling like my boyfriend doesn't really love me or care for me like I do....I don't really know what to think and I think (and other people tell me too) that I'm just being paranoid. I try to think of ways to show him that I really care for him but I feel like everything I do never really works. But I think I'm just going to quit trying so hard and let him decide for himself. Anywhoo like I said today wasn't bad. I went to the mall just to hang out and while I was there I ran into my two best friends Paige and Suzie!! I was happy when I saw them because I haven't seen them in forever! lol Then me and Whitney just walked around the mall and went into various stores. I saw sooo many cute things that I wanted to get but I refrained myself from getting it because I wanted to save up. After just walking around for awhile we finally ended up going to Walmart after that. I needed to get some things and I pretty much got it and got out of there because I tend to see a lot of things at Walmart that I will end up getting when I don't need to. lol So when I finally got everything what does it start to do?? RAIN and it was raining good for a bit and I was like "you've got to be kidding me?!?"Luckly it stopped as soon as I got home....I got in the house and then the sun was shinning!! I can never win when it comes to the sun. lol Overall not a bad day....I was just really looking forward to The Kids Choice Awards that was on tonight! I haven't watched The Kids Choice Awards in like some years because we didn't have cable and sometimes I might get to see it over at my grannies house but I wasn't really enjoying it then. Overall review on it?? IT WAS AWESOME!!!!! And I was talking to James through half of it so that made me even more happier!! He is soooo awesome and I love our conversations even if it's not much. A start off to my weekend hasn't been bad....tomorrow is gonna be even better because the kids are staying over at my grannies house for awhile so I'll have some peace and quiet at last....Well I'm going to head off to bed....after I eat my Sherbert hahahaha!! And I'll probably watch some movies til I fall asleep because I'm too excited!! Don't know why either....probably because I'm just high on cloud 9 and don't wanna come down. lol but check me out later!

April 1, 2011 April Fool's!!!

So as you already know today is April Fool's day....I didn't think I had it in me to trick everyone so bad. lol I had this plan but I didn't know how it would blow over. I had this plan to put my relationship status on Facebook from "in a relationship" to "engaged." Now I totally forgot to tell my boyfriend last night so that he would be aware and wouldn't freak out when I did that. So I posted a fake status saying that I was engaged and that everyone was invited and the date was February 30tth. But people were suspecting things so to make it real I definitely wanted to change my relationship status to fall through with it. So even though my boyfriend (and his name is James so I don't have to keep saying boyfriend lol) didn't know yet I just decided to change it anyway...and I was gonna change it by the end of the day. When James got online he was freaked out and wondered what was going on. So I told him what I was trying to do and he figured that was what I was going for, and I told him that I would change it back. He thought it was a nice joke and I did other jokes as well but this one was by far THE BEST I have ever done! lol I love that my boyfriend went along with it too. My best friend Lesley that I text like everyday fell for it too! I changed my signature on my phone to "Engaged!!" and she was asking me what was that all about and I said "isn't it obvious?" and she was like "yea but I was wondering if it was true" and I told her "yep!! ;-)" and she asked me when did I get engaged and I told her last night. She wanted to know what my parents said and I told her that my mom didn't really care but overall they were happy. So then she wanted to know how did he propose and I made up this story and it went a little something like this....me and James were talking and the subject of marriage came up and he asked what if me and him got married? And I told him that it would be nice....and then he asked me to marry him and I said yes!! So she was like "so it wasn't like a proposal with a ring and stuff?" and I said "no but I have a feeling that he will do that the next time we see each other..." Then she said that she bets that I would cry when he actually does it and I told her no I wouldn't because I don't really cry. So then things were dying down and she asked me if I was excited and I told her that I was but she didn't really believe me. And then I told her...."well I really would be if this wasn't an April Fool's trick!!! hahahaha!!" She forgot that it was April Fool's day and with my skills I tricked her good! lol I did pretty good with that, that I decided to trick my caregiver Teila....lol I didn't think that I would get her but I pulled it off really good. I acted all happy and on cloud 9 (as she puts it) and she knew something was up so she asked me what did James do....I told her that he's just sooo great and that I have big news for her. She then saw something and out of the blue she goes "your too young to get married" and I just looked at her like "WHAT?!?" and I told her that I wasn't really young because a lot of people get married young but I knew better not to do it now. I waited til my other caregiver Whitney to come back in the room (because she knew what I was gonna do) and I told them both that I got proposed from James and Teila was shocked but happy at the same time. She asked me if he asked my mom about this and I told her no because he wanted to see how I felt about it first before discusing it with my mom. She still was going for it and then I asked her what she thought about this and she just told me that she was gonna pray about it because she knew my mom was going to flip when she heard this. Then I said that there was need to pray when it was all an April Fool's trick! lol She wanted to get me back sooo bad but couldn't think of nothing so I won the April Fool's day of tricks!! I have never done something oh so big like this and I'm ready for next year's April Fool's because it's already in the works....whatever happens until then will depend on how it goes. I do hope to still be with James by that time so my plan can really work but it depends on how the future goes. I did talk to James tonight and he liked how I had everybody going and of course I'll be changing my relationship status back. I also found out where James stands on the whole marriage thing....and he doesn't expect to get married til 5 years from now. He doesn't want to be like those other teenagers/adults who get married at a young age, and neither do I....so at least we see eye to eye on that. He did see how everyone fell for it since we have been together for almost 8 months now...but still I'd wait a year or two before getting engaged and then get married a couple years later to get things figured out. Who that will be with?? I have no freakin idea and at this point I'm not really worrying about it because I'm just gonna live my life. But I do have an upside to this....my one caregiver Teila said that she could see James proposing to me just out of the blue, because he's different, quiet, and random like that. And I'm not saying that I don't see that either but I just don't know....Well I should head off to bed to get ready for an exciting day at the mall with Whitney....I wish I had either my boyfriend or best friend to go with me because I have more fun with them around! lol so night night for now....